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-[Sunday, November 29, 2009]-

Hmm... Today is Sunday... my turn to do Logistic for Service... Haiya... Late again... Partly because i woke up late... But also a bit of the Rain... But nevertheless still did it...

Today Service we were taught on the Gospel of John chapter 9, Jesus being the Master Healer... i was again reminded of why we go through Pain, Suffering, Trials and Temptation. Actually is more of Pain, Suffering and Temptation... We go through this is because, all this happens so that the Work of God Might be Displayed in our life... Well this is another reminder from God to me... i at many times question myself why this happens to me and also why does people have to suffer... Well i know one thing for sure we need to always take the step of Faith in obeying God's Will and Plan for us... He is our Creator and He knows what is best for all of us... So i guess we can just take the step of Faith with Regards to His Work...

What is the key thing we need to do is... Love the Lord your God with All you Heart and All your Soul and All your Mind... Learn to Know God and Love Him more and more each day of our life... And also why is Jesus the Master Healer... This is because He renew our Physical Strength and not only this... He also gives us Eternal Life... And this is the Renewal of our Spiritual Strength... And He always Loves to Give... And Often He gives more then what we Need, Reason being He Loves us dearly...

And today i was brought to see that i'm like the Blind man... Who was blind but now i see... Past years, i have discovered that my going to Foundation, YF, Service and all has been like part of my program and is build into me... i go to Foundation class and sit there for 2 hours... Is jus like a sponge expect that i will let all the water out in this case the Truth learn... Well God has cause my eyes to be open and i can see how is His Word and His Work working in my Life... Now i Leave Foundation, YF and Service with a Smile on my Face... i have seen the wonderful work of His word in my Life... Ministering to me... Thank You Father...

Thy Word:

Thy Word is a Lamp unto my feet

And a Light unto my Path

Thy Word is a Lamp unto my feet

And a Light unto my Path

When i Feel Afraid

Think i've Lost my Way

Still, You're there Right Beside me

Nothing Will i Fear

As Long as You are Near

Please be Near me To the End

Thy Word is a Lamp unto my feet

And a Light unto my Path

Thy Word is a Lamp unto my feet

And a Light unto my Path

i Will Not Forget

Your Love for me and yet,

my Heart Forever is Wandering

Jesus Be my Guide,

Hold me Closely to Your Side,

And i Will Love You to The End

Thy Word is a Lamp unto my feet

And a Light unto my Path

Thy Word is a Lamp unto my feet

And a Light unto my Path

Nothing Will i Fear

As Long as You are Near

Please Be Near me To the End

Thy Word is a Lamp unto my feet

And a Light unto my Path

Thy Word is a Lamp unto my feet

And a Light unto my Path

And a Light Unto my Path~

God's Will Only Takes you Where His Grace Can Keep you

Labels: A Heart of Thankfulness

-..Wonders Of Today..- Callbacks
['-Will-'] ;11/29/2009 10:40:00 PM;

-[Saturday, November 28, 2009]-

Today was a very meaningful day... i have learn again new things... In Foundation i have learn that i need not feel bad when i don't meet up to the Standard for it is just and Accusation made by the devil himself... It is made possible because first we are Victors through Christ, next is Because the Blood Of Christ...

Then moving on to YF... We carried on Part 2 on the Topic of Relationship... i was really looking forward to it... And Thanks to be God... He has spoken to me today... i have realize that i wasn't ready after all... i don't have the Willingness to remain single... And that already means that i'm not ready to Wait on God to send me the person i'm suppose to spend my rest of my life... Though i may think i'm ready for a Long-Term Relationship but the question to ask myself... Am i truly Ready?...

Well i Really Thank God for today's session and reminding me the Story of Jonah and the word Que Sera Sera... Whatever God wants me to have/give me NO one can take it away from me, And no matter where i run i can't hide from Him and His Will... There God i want to Surrender it all unto You...

i know it will be hard for me to Surrender it all unto You but Lord i pray that You will always remind me...

Change my heart O God:

Change my Heart, O God, Make it Ever True

Change my Heart, O God, May i be Like You

You are the Potter, i am the Clay

Mould me and Make me, this what i Pray

Change my Heart, O God, Make it Ever True

Change my Heart, O God, May i be Like You

Change my Heart, O God, Make it Ever True

Change my Heart, O God, May i be Like You

Labels: Thankfulness

-..Wonders Of Today..- Callbacks
['-Will-'] ;11/28/2009 11:21:00 PM;

-[Thursday, November 26, 2009]-

Today when with the EYFers to watch 2012... It was nice... But i think the show is quite stupid in some sense... But that movie really push me to think... What happen if Christ were to return now!? Am i ready to face Him... Will He let me enter His house... But in any case i want to GO HOME... I had it... I don't want to Run the Race Make out for me liao... i'm so tired, both Physcally and Mentally and also Emotionally drain... i don't want to run...

Father my mind is occupied by the thoughts of What if You were to return now and her... Father help me... Lord Use Your Word and lead me out of this Darkness and be my Guide...

Labels: confuse and depress

-..Wonders Of Today..- Callbacks
['-Will-'] ;11/26/2009 11:10:00 PM;

-[Wednesday, November 25, 2009]-

Start from yesterday... We went to Celebrate JieShun's 21st Birthday at Bugis... We includes... Me, Reggie. Olivia, YiMei, ChinHang, Brandon Lim, JieShun and ChinHo... The birthday boy got sabo until like siao... Was sabo to sing in the MIbble of Bugis Junction... Walao... Haha... Win like lor...

*Something awkward happen before and i don't will to say it...

Today i got a mission to go and buy Balls for inviting friend for Tchoukball... Haha... But i went Army Market first... Brought a Bag... Wow is bigger then my NetBook... haha...

Ok la IDK what to write liao.....................................

Labels: i really somehow hope that, that will happen

-..Wonders Of Today..- Callbacks
['-Will-'] ;11/25/2009 10:34:00 PM;

-[Thursday, November 19, 2009]-

Remind Me Dear Lord:

The things that i Love and Hold to my Heart

Are just Borrowed, they're Not mine at All

Jesus Only Let me Use them to Brighten my Life

SO REMIND ME,(would you)REMIND ME DEAR LORD

Chorus:

Roll Back the curtains of Memories Now and Then,

Show me where you Brought me From and Where i Should have Been

Remember i'm human, and humans forget

SO REMIND ME,(would you)REMIND ME DEAR LORD

Nothing Good Have i Done, to Deserve God's Own Son

i'm Not Worthy for the scars In His Hands

Yet He Chose the Road to Calvary to Die in my Stead

Why He Loves me, i Can't Understand

Chorus:

Roll Back the curtains of Memories Now and Then,

Show me where you Brought me From and Where i Should have Been

Remember i'm human, and humans forget

SO REMIND ME,(would you)REMIND ME DEAR LORD~

I don't know what to write... Things are so messed up now... I did what was right, and i get what scolded!?... I'm tired... When can all this rubbish ends... I don't want to do it any longer... It was never nice...

Terence:You(Me) should get your old Character back. I like your old character

William: Sorry Brother. I tried... but is just hard...

To Belle: If you wanna scold me just go right ahead and just spell my name there... Need not use other names to replace mine... You are not like those others...

my Responses to God:

Shepherd of my soul:

Shepherd of my soul

i Give You Full Control

Wherever You May Lead

i Will Follow

i Have Made the Choice to Listen For Your Voice

Wherever You May Lead

i Will Go

Chorus:

Be it In a Quiet Pasture

Or By a Gentle Stream

The Shepherd my soul is by my Side~

Should i Face a Mighty Mountain

Or a Valley Dark and Deep

The Shepherd my soul is by my Side

Shepherd of my soul

i Give You Full Control

Wherever You May Lead

i Will Follow

i Have Made the Choice to Listen For Your Voice

Wherever You May Lead

i Will Go

Chorus:

Be it In a Quiet Pasture

Or By a Gentle Stream

The Shepherd my soul is by my Side~

Should i Face a Mighty Mountain

Or a Valley Dark and Deep

The Shepherd my soul is by my Side

Lord Lead me

Potter's Hands:

Beautiful Lord, Wonderful Saviour

i Know for Sure All of my Days are

Held In Your Hand

Crafted Into Your Perfect Plan

You Gently Called me into Your Presence

Guided me by Your Holy Spirit

Teach me Dear Lord

To Live All of my Life Through Your Eyes

Pre-Chorus:

i'm Capture By Your Holy Calling

Set me Apart, i Know You're Drawing

me To Yourself

Lead me Lord, i Pray

Chorus:

Take me, Mould me

Use me, Fill me

i Give my Life to The Potter's Hands

Call me, You Guide me

Lead me, Walk Beside me

i Give my Life to The Potter's Hands

Beautiful Lord, Wonderful Saviour

i Know for Sure All of my Days are

Held In Your Hand

Crafted Into Your Perfect Plan

You Gently Called me into Your Presence

Guided me by Your Holy Spirit

Teach me Dear Lord

To Live All of my Life Through Your Eyes

Pre-Chorus:

i'm Capture By Your Holy Calling

Set me Apart, i Know You're Drawing

me To Yourself

Lead me Lord, i Pray

Chorus:

Take me, Mould me

Use me, Fill me

i Give my Life to The Potter's Hands

Call me, You Guide me

Lead me, Walk Beside me

i Give my Life to The Potter's Hands

Take me, Mould me

Use me, Fill me

i Give my Life to The Potter's Hands

Call me, You Guide me

Lead me, Walk Beside me

i Give my Life to The Potter's Hands

i Give my Life to The Potter's Hands~

You are the Potter and i'm the clay... Mould me Dear Lord... Lead me and guide me Lord i Pray...

-..Wonders Of Today..- Callbacks
['-Will-'] ;11/19/2009 11:21:00 PM;

-[Friday, November 13, 2009]-

"My Love"

An empty street, an empty house
A hole inside my heart
I'm all alone, the rooms are getting smaller.
I wonder how, I wonder why, I wonder where they are
The days we had, the songs we sang together.(oh yeah)

And all my love, I'm holding on forever
Reaching for the love that seems so far

[Chorus:]
So I say a little prayer
And hope my dreams will take me there
Where the skies are blue, to see you once again... my love.
All the seas from coast to coast
To find the place I Love The Most
Where the fields are green, to see you once again... my love.

I try to read, I go to work
I'm laughing with my friends
But I can't stop to keep myself from thinking. (oh no)
I wonder how, I wonder why, I wonder where they are
The days we had, the songs we sang together.(oh yeah)

And all my love, I'm holding on forever
Reaching for the love that seems so far

So I say a little prayer
And hope my dreams will take me there
Where the skies are blue, to see you once again... my love.
All the seas from coast to coast
To find the place I Love The Most
Where the fields are green, to see you once again...

To hold you in my arms
To promise you my love
To tell you from the heart
You're all I'm thinking of

Reaching for the love that seems so far

So I say a little prayer
And hope my dreams will take its there
Where the skies are blue, to see you once again... my love.
All the seas from coast to coast
To find the place I Love The Most
Where the fields are green, to see you once again... my love.

Say it in a prayer (my sweet love)
Dreams will take it there
Where the skies are blue (woah yeah), to see you once again my love. (oh my love)
All the seas from coast to coast
To find the place I Love The Most
Where the fields are green, to see you once again.... My Love.

"Queen Of My Heart"

So here we stand
In our secret place
With a sound of the crowd
So far away
And you take my hand
And it feels like home
We both understand
It's where we belong

So how do I say?
Do I say goodbye?
We both have our dreams
We both wanna fly
So let's take tonight
To carry us through
The lonely times

[CHORUS:]
I'll always look back
As I walk away
This memory
Will last for eternity
And all of our tears
Will be lost in the rain
When I've found my way
Back to your arms again
But until that day
You know you are
The queen of my heart
Queen of my heart

So let's take tonight
And never let go
While dancing we'll kiss
Like there's no tomorrow
As the stars sparkle down
Like a diamond ring
I'll treasure this moment
Till we meet again

But no matter how far
(Matter how far)
Or where you may be
(Where you may be)
I just close my eyes
(I just close my eyes)
And you're in my dreams
And there you will be
Until we meet

[Repeat chorus twice]

Oh yeah
You're the
Queen of my heart
(Of my heart)
No matter
How many years it takes
(Queen of my heart)
I'll give it all to you
Oh yeah
(Queen of my heart)
Oh yes you are
The queen of my heart

"I Wanna Grow Old With You"

Another day
Without your smile
Another day just passes by
But now I know
How much it means
For you to stay
Right here with me

The time we spent apart will make our love grow stronger
But it hurt so bad I can't take it any longer

I wanna grow old with you
I wanna die lying in your arms
I wanna grow old with you
I wanna be looking in your eyes
I wanna be there for you
Sharing everything you do
I wanna grow old with you

A thousand miles between us now
It causes me to wonder how
Our love tonight remains so strong
It makes our risk right all along

The time we spent apart will make our love grow stronger
But it hurt so bad I can't take it any longer

I wanna grow old with you
I wanna die lying in your arms
I wanna grow old with you
I wanna be looking in your eyes
I wanna be there for you
Sharing everything you do
I wanna grow old with you

Things can come and go I know but
Baby I believe
Something's burning strong between us
Makes it clear to me

I wanna grow old with you
I wanna die lying in your arms
I wanna grow old with you
I wanna be looking in your eyes
I wanna be there for you
Sharing everything you do
I wanna grow old with you

Suddenly i feel like uploading this lyrics from Westlife's song...

-..Wonders Of Today..- Callbacks
['-Will-'] ;11/13/2009 10:29:00 PM;

Hmm i don't know what is wrong with me today... First i started off by going to AsiaWide Industrial Building to Collect Oven from Jessie at RBC... But along the way i was thinking about something... Then coming back that time message Rebecca... But the strange thing was... We thought that we were on the same bus... But it turn out that she is 1 bus behind of me... Haha...

Then went to EL for Cookie Baking Lesson... It was fun... But also boring at the same time... Haha... But after the baking and all the instruction i sat down.... Then my mind started to wander off again... This time was something very personal super personal... I thought of giving up and let go...

Well never mind about that... I went home then as i was walking my mind was still on the same topic... So entertain it lor... Then jus now i talked with HuiJun on Msn then was talking about the Band BBQ... Then i told her what Elissa told me... So then i was reminded of what Elissa asked me that Day... Then my mind started thinking about the answer... So my mind wander liao lor...

Worst thing is... I'm now asking myself a question:"Will people want me?..." Then i'm feeling very weird now... Angry and sad at the same time... Then i feel that people are being too much on the outside liao... They always fail to look inside and always looking on the outside first... Haiz... That is the hard Fact...

Labels: Feeling wrong

-..Wonders Of Today..- Callbacks
['-Will-'] ;11/13/2009 08:57:00 PM;

-[Thursday, November 12, 2009]-

Today was a day of problems... I woke up today to find that my mother haven buy anything for dinner... Rather the Stuff i needed for cooking Dinner... Then never mind i went down to the Market to get it myself... Then a number of things don't have... Then i have to make do with whatever i can get my hands on... So after that i went to buy lunch... Everything i wanted to eat don't have... wow... That conclude the first part of the day...

My Afternoon got nothing special... Only played Maple for the whole day...

Evening came... I prepared the food that was need for dinner... So then after that i began cooking... But it turns out to be a flop... Then dad called ask if there was any left... Then i told him to buy fried Chicken... Hehe...Happy...

Then in the Late evening i got a Call from Reggie that i'm need to collect something from Jessie in RBC... So ok lor... I was suppose to go with another person but can't find another guy... So i suggested to Reggie... Why not get another Sister to go with me there... But he answered:"you think a sister can carry ar?" Then deep inside my heart i answered:" then you want me to 1 person go take la" I felt very fed up.... Then after this I was told by Reggie that i was to inform Adam and Alson about the meeting this sunday after Service... So i tried... And that Adam Lau didn't reply at all... I was even more fed up...

Some time i just find myself very pitiful... I can't seems to reject people's request for assistance or help... I will always be there for them... And when i need a favour... People just disappear... What is this... I need to find my feeling and reject this kind of request in the near future...

Labels: Caught up with thoughts

-..Wonders Of Today..- Callbacks
['-Will-'] ;11/12/2009 11:47:00 PM;

This are some of the Shots i took while at the Chalet... It was a fun and spooky Chalet this time around... I shall not talk about that... Well Class I know i will miss you all... This 4 years together and some of you is 2 years... But whatever the number of years we spent together... It was a wonderful 1... Happy Knowing you all.... And thanks for being part of my Life...

Well something strange happen after the BBQ... I suddenly feel very ZONE Out... IDK what is wrong with me but i jus feel like stoning... But at the same time i feel very troubled and her name jus came into my mind... I can't seems to get it out... Then Miss Ng saw me then ask me how was the progress.... Then i Stun and look at her... Then i ehh... But never answer.... Well during the 3 days there... Her name somehow like kept me company... Wow...

Band BBQ is coming and is on the 10 of Dec... This was the day WeiLun and Pamela first started... I didn't know until Elissa told me... Then i kenna stun lor... Then i joke with Elissa... Maybe hor this year will be my turn... Then she asked me a question do i stand a chance.... Then i replied her... Even if i did i also won't do anything... Cos i know is impossible... She will just be part of my memory a person who i can only like from a Distance and not upclose... Oh well that is live i guess... I don't have to be a Fool to know the outcome of this thing if i take that step... It will end up with something bad, very bad......

Labels: occupy by her name

-..Wonders Of Today..- Callbacks
['-Will-'] ;11/12/2009 01:13:00 AM;